“You fail only if you stop writing” – Ray Bradbury
Welcome to Lyd on Life.
Expression is good.
Laughing, crying, screaming, punching or simply doing nothing. Everything we do is an expression.
I’ve not written a blog post in over 2 months. That’s me unconsciously expressing the fact that I’m stuck. I’m not screaming or crying because I know what I need to do. I’m simply doing nothing because I’m not sure if I want to do it. If I can commit to it. If I can actually do it. Am I ready to do it?
For the past month (or so) I’ve been re-designing my blog in hopes of getting some inspiration to actually write new content. I wasn’t happy with the way my blog looked and kept getting distracted by the need to change it. To be honest it wasn’t just the way it looked that bothered me. I wasn’t happy with what I was writing about or how I was writing. Reading my posts from 5 months ago, nothing made me excited.
How did I expect anyone else to be excited about what I wrote if I wasn’t?
So, I tweaked, deleted, updated and changed a few things. A lot of things actually. If you aren’t new to my page then you’ll notice the difference (I hope). If you are new then you stumbled on my blog at the right time (I hope).
I started to realise I was slowly forgetting what I wanted to do here on the blogosphere. Or at least what I was trying to do. I got lost in the sauce a little. More focused on putting out content to stay active instead of relevant. Relatable. Refreshing. Transparent. Informative. All the adjectives I hoped anyone who comes on my page would say about me. I wasn’t being any of those things. Why?
Perhaps I’m afraid. Or was afraid. I’d like to think I’m not any more, having deleted 30 of my posts and started again…ish. However, the fact that I haven’t posted anything for so long shows me that I’m still a little afraid. Do I really have something worthwhile to say? Are the lessons I learn worth writing about? Have I experienced enough about life to write about it? Do I really want the world to know my thoughts?
The answer is Yes. Yes, yes, yes and yes. Or at least I think so. I’m a firm believer that if you’re not ready to give up, don’t. Take a break but don’t give up. The fact remains that though I’ve spent the last month or so changing my blog instead of writing blog post, I still come back to my blog. Every day without fail I check up on my blog. For what or why I don’t know. But I do. Something tells me to.
That little things in your head that keeps brining you back to that thing you keep putting off is trying to tell you something. Perhaps it’s saying put an end to it properly or perhaps it’s saying try again. So, I’m trying again. And I’ll keep trying. Nothing we do is every in vain. Everything we do is leading us somewhere. Even this random form of expression you’ve just read is leading me (and hopefully you) somewhere. It’s OK to have these moments. Especially when it comes to a hobby or a lifestyle change. Just don’t stay in that moment for too long. Enjoy the process. This blog was one of my goals for 2017. 2017 isn’t over yet.
Are you a novice or well seasoned blogger? How are you finding blogging? Do you ever have doubts? How do you deal with them? If you could describe you’re blog in three words, what would they be?
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Till next time.
Lydia x | https://lydonlife.wordpress.com
P.s: Here are some helpful posts for moments of doubt: